Grief hurts!  It doesn’t matter if it comes suddenly or after someone has suffered with a terminal illness or after someone has lived 100 years on Earth – it hurts!  It hurts because we love each other and miss each other.  It hurts because we selfishly want to keep that person with us and not let go.

Since we’ve returned to Cameroon in November 2012, we’ve been directly affected by ten deaths here and two deaths we’ve mourned afar.  I remember reading in a book written by a missionary serving abroad that when one mourns from afar the grief usually doesn’t fully hit that person until they return to their home country and experience the first gathering where that person isn’t present.

Grief is handled differently by each person and is handled differently by each culture.  Grief is cultural.  In our passport country, although we don’t have great words to say, we have been taught by watching, listening, experiencing while growing up, words to convey sympathy to someone who has lost a loved one or that we would receive from someone expressing their sympathy to us.  Don’t get me wrong, there is no way to make someone feel less pain when mourning the loss of someone they loved, especially through words.  It’s difficult to know what words to use with our Cameroonian friends to express our sympathy in a way that is received as sympathy.  The way funerals are conducted, memorial services, burials are all completely different than in our passport country.  When emotions are raw, it’s hard to grasp a learning curve of that magnitude.

We lost a friend and co-worker on February 4th.  We are in the midst of mourning.  Because of the scope of David’s position, he doesn’t get to have downtime because he’s the one turned to for answers about logistical things that need to be accomplished.  This has been difficult for David as it is the fourth death since returning from furlough that he has had to assist with the various logistics, including taking his friend and co-worker to the morgue.

We know the promises we have from the Bible, we know that our friends and loved ones are in heaven.  I’ll never forget something a friend shared after he lost his beloved wife.  He said he knew the extreme depth of her love for him and their children, however, it hit him during a drive that if she had to choose between returning to be with her family or staying in her eternal home, she would choose her eternal home.  I’m also reminded of a song, written by a friend that speaks of golden streets and how on golden streets we’ll be free.  We know we live in a fallen world and because of that, there will be death, but we have the promise that in heaven there will be no more death.  “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes.  There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Revelations 21:4

It does bring comfort and a smile to think of those who are in their eternal homes, dancing on golden streets in uninhibited freedom!

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9 Responses to Grief

  1. Pop-pop says:

    Jesus promised comfort to those who mourn. May the comfort of the Holy Spirit rest upon you all in a supernatural way as you grieve the loss of still another loved one in the Lord.

  2. Janet Ziegelbaur says:

    We are grieving with you from a distance. But that is hard to do too. It won’t hit us until we’re back in Cameroon, and maybe not even then — we may not see Barb or Nathan again either. Thanks for these honest words, Deanna. I can’t believe how many deaths the Cameroon Branch has had to suffer in such a short time. God is good all the time. Still praying for you guys – and maybe more for David, that when the dust settles, he’ll be able to grieve well. Love you guys tons.

  3. Mark Hosler says:

    Thanks David for sharing these thoughts. I can relate to all that you have said here. I hope you will be able to find the opportunity to take a break and grieve the losses. I know that is difficult on the mission field, especially when you have to fill in the void left by another person’s death. I pray you will find some time for you and God to be able to deal with the pain and find healing. God bless you.

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