Our emotions are all over the map anticipating our return to the USA. We are excited and nervous at the same time. You may be asking yourself as you read this, “Why are we nervous?” and I’ll share why.
1. I’m nervous I’ll be a reckless driver in the USA. I’ve adapted to weaving in and out of traffic, going into the oncoming lane because that’s normal and you just swerve, two lane roads becoming six lanes of traffic, pulling out in front of others knowing they’ll yield to me, getting into arguments with other drivers about driving and laughing at the end.
2. I’m nervous I’ll be so different that I won’t be able to adjust back to the USA. It’s my passport country. I’m an American through and through, however, I’ve lived overseas for the last six years (one year in France and five in Cameroon), the lenses on my cultural sunglasses have changed.
3. I’m nervous that everyone’s lives have marched on and they won’t have room for me to be part of their lives.
4. I’m nervous for the boys to be in new schools.
5. I’m nervous for the boys making new friends.
6. I’m nervous about not knowing what’s next for us.
7. I’m nervous we won’t have enough money to live on.
8. I’m nervous I’ll appear stupid when people ask me questions and I have trouble articulating in English since French has taken over certain parts of my brain making it harder to recall all my English. Also appearing that way when people ask me questions about anything that’s happened in the USA in the past six years – I don’t know.
9. I’m nervous about what new technology or thing has taken over since 2012. In 2012 when we were in the USA it was very hard for me to “get” smart phones and people always being on their phones.
10. I’m nervous I’ll be judgmental of others or my comments will come across as being judgmental.